1.BITCH
I don’t care about the things you said last time
Cause in my dreams I am fighting with you ev‘ry night
No more lame justifications to tolerate this pain
You and me live in a different kind of shade, so
I don’t care about you, bitch
I don‘t care about you, bitch
I should stop, but I won’t
You should leave, but you stay
We should talk, but we don’t
I need to push you away
I should run, but I freeze
I should see, but I’m blind
I will destroy this disease
by a resolving goodbye, because
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Look at me, I am dying
Someone call the police
This is a crime no one can see
You can see
You can see
2. OFF MY MEDS
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I go down all the way to a place you can‘t reach
I‘m your clown, I am not what I seem on the outside
I don’t spit it out, cannot breathe when it grows inside of me
I can’t cope with feelings that I don’t know
I come from a place with no love, no foundation of trust,
Everyday I would struggle alone, growing up
I would struggle to see how you strangulate me
You would drown in your poison, then put it on me
I’m still down on my knees, but beginning to see
You’ve got no more power over me
I will leave this behind and step into the light
I’m so scared (no one wants to be me)
It’s killing me inside
So scared (no one wants to be me)
And nothing can make it alright
I really wanna move on and finally get things done
But then again everything goes wrong
So scared (no one wants to be near me)
When I’m finally off my meds
With all I feel, I try not to go insane
Body won’t heal, russian roulette every goddamn day
Not to walk, clutch or feel, not to talk, touch or see
Scares the shit right out of me
But I gotta move on, giving up would be wrong
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How would you feel if you woke up and couldn’t breathe
How would you see if everything was black
How would you get up on your feet
With all this weight upon your heart
When you suffocate in the dark
3. ​NEON LIGHTS
I know you want me, I don't want you the same way
I see you call me, but don’t agree with what you say
My tongue’s licking your lips, so the words will go away
I start moving my hips, you close your eyes and start to fade
I know the demons that drive you
I have them, too
I cannot see where you’re going
I can only stay behind
All your words are dying
In the shadows of the neon lights
Watch me as I turn around
Wander off into the night
I’m no longer scared as I’m protected
By the neon lights
Your words sound eerie, so disappointed in what you say
I know you will kill me if I don’t start to walk away
The bad girl in your life, so release me from this chain
A free fall in your mind. but this won’t help you with the pain
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Now I see where you’re heading
But realize I don’t want to go
Because all of the times you were stabbing me
With words that no one knows
And I see you’re waiting for me
But I realize I don’t want us to grow
Cause now I know it’s over
4. GREY ROOM
When I think of you
I get a heavy heart
There‘s nothing I can do
It’s tearing me apart
And you - trapped in blind lies
And I - hide in plain sight, in the
In the grey room
I‘ll obey you
I‘m reaching out for you
There‘s not much left to find
So what is it that I can do
To not be left behind, in the
In the grey room
I’ll obey you
I won‘t fade…
I won‘t go
5. NOT IN LOVE
Every little thing that you say to me don‘t mean a thing
When I‘m too drunk and don't understand what you say
Yes I see the looks that you‘re giving me
And close my eyes and drift away
You know what? Just come closer
So my tipsy tongue can write it on your lips
Yeah, this is a game, a rollercoaster
And I guess that there is no one else to blame
I‘m not in love, I‘m not in love
I‘m not in love, I‘m not in love
Cause my heart is dead and gone
Where you see signs I see stars
And they‘re taking me to where I am from
Don‘t be such a fool, I'll be gone
Before you wake up
Hell I know I am toxic, I know I am strange
And I know I‘m a freak and yes I‘m ashamed
I‘m trouble - don‘t get too involved with me
Cause my blood‘s kind of black
Running through crippled veins
And my heart‘s got a crack, don‘t try to save me
It‘s in vein
6. NO ORDINARY PEOPLE
I see the way you look at me, like no one else would know
That we are meant to be, I‘ve never been so sure
At night when you sleep in your bed
I‘m standing by your side
You’re messing with my head and I will break your pride
In a blink of an eye, in the dead of the night
But then you toss and turn at night
Your screaming isn’t right
I need to convince you that we are no…
We‘re no ordinary people, we’re better than the rest
Even though you still seem unsure, I know that this will last
We‘re no ordinary people, I’ll show you what is best
Hold still or you will hurt yourself … again
I blew my air into your lungs to make you dream of me
A taste of death and drugs that slowly sets you free
I thought I could cheat on love as it cheated on me
You‘re down on your knees where I want you to be
I‘ll make you see
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I don‘t understand why you wanna go
While all this pain is still inside and around you
You don’t wanna scream? Well, then don’t
Cause no one, no one will find you
It’s a question of trust
Don’t you see what I can be? All that we can be?
I could explain what I mean
But you‘re not keeping your promise
To shut up and listen
You’re too loud, YOU’RE TOO LOUD
I said you were too loud
And I warned you… didn’t I?
7. BAD CHOICES
Come inside and show me how you fuck
Let’s face the fact, baby, you are stuck
I come for you in the dead of night
Your body’s telling me you want this, too… right?
I‘m on my knees, right here by your hips
Now move slowly, read it from my lips
Nothing‘s ever like before
We can’t go back now we’ve opened that door
See what’s left and use it right
As long as you do it in the dead of night
Do me once, fool me twice
Honestly, I don’t mind
I’m not here as a friend
That talks shit to make sense
Let’s get tangled up in bad, bad choices
You’re asking for permission to go down
Well, there you go, now baby, shut your mouth
Take what’s yours, stop asking me
I will follow gladly when you lead
8. DEMONS
I might have had a drink or two
Crawling into bed and I don‘t even know what I do
I don‘t want to be sober alone
Cause that‘s when all my demons come up laughing
Putting on a show
I have to drink the demons down
I have to drink the demons down
I have to drink the demons down
I have to drink the demons down
Next day I might as well be dead
Nothing to hold on to but a freight train
Running through my head
I drink harder than I did before
Cause that‘s the only way I do not hear them
Banging down my door
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(Demons)
All these demons messing with my head
But I know now what to do
(Demons)
All these demons messing with my head
But I know now what to do
(Demons)
All these demons messing with my head
But I know now what to do
(Demons)
You better drink the demons down
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You better drink the demons, you better drink the demons
You better drink the demons down down down down
9. SAVE ME
(EXCLUSIVE CD BONUS TRACK)
I don‘t wanna be dead without you
But I get pulled under in stormy clouds
You‘ve been trying so hard to follow
Into the darkness where my faith died
And I keep you away
Far from sorrow
As you try to reach me
I drift away
Come and save me - I don‘t want this to be my life
Come and save me - I don‘t know how I can survive
Come and save me - I am so tired, I can‘t fight
Come and save me - one last time
I don‘t wanna be living without you
So I claw my fingers deep into your heart
As I try to smooth it over
You shake your head and keep me warm
It's you who saved my life
Without even trying
And now I am hiding
In your smile
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I see your face on the surface
As I fall deeper into black waters
We both still need to process
That I almost didn‘t make it back
But here I am
Cause you saved me
And I won‘t leave
I‘m still here
10. DANCE TO A SACRED BASS
You caught me by surprise with all the thing you say
And now I realise I‘m coming your way real fast
I hope that‘s okay
You weren‘t in my sight until you confessed,
I wanna play at night, you go me obsessed with you
Yeah, I know that’s okay
Then you shocked me back to rhythm
Now we’re dancing to the beat
Of my defensive cynicism
That only you can read
And we’ll sing our vows tonight
And in another time and space
The second we collide
We‘ll dance to a sacred bass
When we give away our sanity suddenly we know
And exchange our grey reality with a shimmery glow tonight
And it feels so damn right
We’re standing on the cliff of the point of no return
It takes a single hit to let the fire burn
Make it shine so damn bright
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(There‘s no me in your world, no you in my world…)
(Let me occupy your mind)
(We gonna dance)
11. SECRET GARDEN
Could it be that tomorrow
You gonna take back what you just said
A love that‘s real, but borrowed
We don‘t trust the luck we have
And now we run in circles
Like tigers in despair
And now we run in circles
And pretend we don‘t care
This needs to stop, needs to stop
And now I - I‘m in too deep
And what will be will be
That's what you said to me
In your secret garden
And wash it over me
As I resign to breathe
My heart starts to beat
In your secret garden
Through the bottom of a bottle
You led me to love in vain
Aware that that means trouble
We were so ready for the pain
And still we run in circles
Like tigers in despair
And still we run in circles
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You’re watching from a distance
But I keep you close inside of me
You turn up your resistance
I know if I asked you‘d disagree
Lust rushed in before we even had time
To use our minds, the night was right
So many lies weaponized, we were blind
I know it’s scary and it’s so much easier to deny
This fire, desire, higher, never died
And now my memories are chasing me
Like a wolf through the night
Shake it off, this love, tough love
You’re not in my life, but in my mind
And in the night you‘re the ghost in my bed
Now forget what I just said